~ The Three Gates/Soul ~

Each gate presents unique challenges to the one moving through it, as well as unique keys as to how to navigate swiftly and safely through the particular veil. You, soul, are no exception. In the past I have advocated a more passive role for you soul for a number of reasons: You are the feminine part inside, therefore your energy is by nature more passive than the active masculine parts. Your energy (love) is connecting in nature, when detaching is the key to navigating through the veils; a more natural function of the masculine centers. And perhaps the most important reason was that the masculine parts need to learn how to properly protect and take care of you, and it seemed that the most effective way for them to learn this was to rescue you from the torment and imprisonment of the pain. However, with the rapidly deteriorating situation in the world, it feels incumbent upon me to reveal to you a key, a key only you can use. For many souls believe they are here to save the earth, and although they have been taught that such a belief is a sign of madness, and as a result have kept such a belief hidden, nonetheless, I wish to give such souls the necessary key to initiate the awakening without having to wait for spirit or God to act. I do this in the firm belief that if in using this key you begin to navigate through the pain, that it will trigger spirit and God to do likewise with their veils. For awake, soul, you will feel vulnerable, and will need the protective, awakened presence of at least one of the masculine parts beside you.

Before giving you the key, I have to lay a little foundation; it might seem tedious to you, but please bear with me. The ego is an illusion, an illusion sustained and perpetuated by the three parts of God. As such, it is a very powerful and convincing illusion. Personally, I have never been satisfied with the term used in the west to describe the illusion: ego. I don't like it for a number of reasons. It, like the masculine consciousness that created it, is too abstract, even the experts with their walls papered with fancy degrees, don't seem to agree or understand what it is. More important to me is that, like the culture that produced it, the term itself seems to exclude the feminine. That is, one can think about, analyze, and debate about the ego, but it's very difficult to get a "feel" about the ego. The term has no depth, no feel to it. The masculine parts can think about an ego, but you soul, don't think so much as feel. Perception through the soul center is not how something "thinks", but rather how something "feels". In the western ego which has judged you to be stupid, weak and dreamy, you are apparently unworthy to participate in the discussion.

I have, at times, thought of appropriating the eastern terms; maya or samsara. The "feel" of them, as well as the feminine cultures from whence they sprang, leads me to assume they are more inclusive, more indicative of the ego's true nature. But I am western, the product of a western culture, so even if I researched and studied the words, I know I could never do justice to the subtle nuances I know they contain. But there is a western term that fits the bill just right. I have alluded to it several times, but was hesitant to use it, particularly here in the spiritual kindergarden of America, where it would be more likely to confuse, and frighten, rather than illuminate. But I think it is time to dispense with the half-truths; the comforting abstractions. It is time to call a spade a spade. So to you soul, who have been so consistently lied to, deceived, blamed and marginalized, I shall reveal a very deep truth, and if you grasp it, it will provide the insight you need to safely navigate back through the gate of pain without any help from "the boys". Incidentally, if you "get it" soul, if you see where I point, spirit and God will also get it. If you see, you will illuminate for the others inside as well. (Wouldn't that be something, the helpless bimbo daughter leading the boys back home. Go on girl!).

Your gate leads to a long dark tunnel. Every time you slip into sadness or that ancient sorrow, or that deep mysterious pain, you have passed through the gate into the tunnel. You cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel, besides which you're too busy struggling to get out, or too seduced and distracted by the familiar feeling to want to, in which case you sink into that state between life and death known as depression. It does not appear to be a tunnel, so much as a black hole with no exit. It is a tunnel, though you won't know that until you have passed through. So how does an innocent soul of unconditional love pass through such a dark tunnel unaided? By knowing the nature of the beast she is dealing with. One of its numerous names, a very powerful name, and inclusive name encompassing the masculine and feminine combined, is "the beast within". Don't hesitate a moment, look within right now, around the area of the heart, and locate the familiar, uncomfortable sensation where the presence of the beast within is revealed in physical reality. When you feel the sensation, you are feeling the presence of something alien to the body, to life; the beast within. It is not a pretty feeling, and to get caught in it is to enter that dark gate of pain. But then, why would you expect the presence of the beast hidden inside to feel good?

As I say, the ego is an illusion. The beast within is simply another name for the illusion. But I would argue, it is both more inclusive, for the feminine soul can get a feel for it, as well as more revealing of this ego's true nature. Keep it simple and you will understand. Is an ego bombing, killing, mindlessly destroying all life, or is it a beast? Don't rely on the contemporary beliefs you have been programmed with, trust your own perception. What does this illusion feel most like, an ego or a beast? For soul, the only way you can navigate through the veil of pain is to understand, through feeling, what it is that you are dealing with. For you, more so than the other parts, your experiences here on earth, revolve around relationships, and the deepest, most enduring relationship you have is with the ego pain. To whit: you have an unconditionally loving relationship with the pain, and it is the one relationship you never consciously chose to enter into.

Your love is your treasure, your gift to the world, and it is not for me to tell you who or what you "should" love. But when it comes to the pain, you never chose. The pain chose for you, seduced you, and in your perfect innocence deceived you into believing you were in fact the pain. The pain is not you, but you, the center through which the deepest intimacy possible for human beings to experience, have such a deep intimate relationship with the pain that you have merged with it.

So, soul, here is the key: Every time you slip into the sadness, the pain, the sorrow, you are slipping into the arms of the beast within. You are nourishing and sustaining the beast with the golden nectar of creation: love. Each time you enter into the veil you are making love to the beast, you are sustaining and perpetuating the very thing that destroys all relationships, destroys families, and is collectively destroying the world. The destroyer of everything a divine being of light cherishes and holds sacred. If you want to get back through the gate, if you want more from life than the pain, the loneliness, the despair that the ego gives you in return for your love, if you want to save the world, or at least give it a chance, if you want to be part of the solution rather than part of the problem, then the next time the beast comes a-calling, seducing you with its sweet whisperings, its familiar feeling of sorrow, you might just find yourself saying "I will love you no more", and just as you have done with others in the world, your love will be instantly withdrawn. Without loving it, you will not connect to it, and without your love, it will grow weak and begin to dissolve, without loving it you will begin moving through the tunnel, and eventually glimpse the light that has eluded you for so long. If each time the beast comes a-calling you see it for exactly what it is, that is the key. For no perfect, innocent, soul of light would willingly, consciously choose to love the destroyer of life.